Syndication14 Dec 2007 - 02:06:25 pm
Where it really starts ....
Where it all went wrong What a confusing chick LOL. Reading this space and thinking that way makes sense as from a stranger’s point of view who will know what I am talking about. Nature has a way of making things. Regardless of what we think and wish and was taught to believe. In my mind it has never been about why and who made me this way rather HOW I came to be made, created this way. Understanding the concept of human creation goes beyond the kiddies fairytale of the birds and the bees or the stork carrying you in his napkin. BTW, why is it always the male form that create things? It is usually the male form that break and destroy things. Anyway, lets leave that for another day, shall we? Back to the business of creation and more specific MY creation. So the process of human creation has a few ingredients that formulate and concoct the limits of science when the female and male bring their reproductive organs together. It all appears to begin with a fetus but I have the tendency to believe it begins with an urge of lust or natural sexual instinct. A profound chemistry that happens between the two basic human genders, male and female. Be that as it may, in the end there is a fetus or rather in the beginning, of the process. Now, I am not a medical expert professor or doctor and have no intention to bore you with a medical lesson on my creation, in womb development and subsequent birth. But if you want to really understand what I am all about, it is very important that you grasp this that I am about to reveal. Like the basics of mathematics THIS is where you get to understand me or loose that ability forever. Now to make it easy, I will use the short and sweet “making a human for dummy’s” version starting from the fetus. The cells that connect and join and begin to form a human. I guess in any process we use a project plan, a beginning a middle and an end. Thanks to the very process of our creation, we as humans tackle any project with the same set of logical steps. Like you don’t build a roof for a building before you have a foundation, walls, etc, humans don’t just happen from zero. The point I am trying to make is that the brain is developed to a point before the body is instructed to develop the gender identity genitals and here is where things get interesting. What if, the fetus gets a female brain, wired with the instinct of a female and the body turns all male? Many or most people refuse to accept it as a “mistake” by the creator but then again they don’t have this condition, this design feature, this mismatch, so just how could they begin to imagine it all. Answering this question where the mental “brain” body is total female while the psychical body (genitals) are male will give you the first step to understanding my dilemma. This is getting too long, so next time I will take it further ………… TSW